What is this

I tried loving again with open arms, tons of understanding, compromising, shouldn’t have been or had to but fantasied about what should be and could I tried to accept the things I couldn’t change and appreciate what was given even though it came with me losing all of me more than ever… is funny I

This Heart of Mine

Lately I’ve been catching myself telling my heart “girl SIT UR ASS DOWN and shush damn it fuck love ” I’m torn between wanting what the heart wants- that love that person who makes u feel like there’s no one better on this earth for them than u no matter what that void from being

Nov9

To some, Black women are not afforded the luxury of finding a better relationship. Black women are not worthy of magical love stories. Successful love stories for Black women are marked solely by our ability to endure suffering and continue to stand with partners who demean, abuse and cheat on us with grace..Women are constantly

J2019

It’s been a long time I shouldn’t have left you without a good blog to hold you🤣🤣 it’s me and I’m BACK again. Lots of changes lots of growth some mistakes made once again BUT I’m back on my journaling kick. This has been my go to to let go and say what I want

Lord I love you

It took the Lord taking you away from me to see how beautiful I am, how capable I am how strong I can and will be… it took me losing everything to learn the importance of not putting any thing or person before him and to only depend and lean on him for every need

@ALost

Who can I turn to when I don’t know where our next meal is coming from, rather or not we’ll have a place of our to rest our heads, if the bills will be paid, the lights kept on, when I have to break down from All that’s been left to me to deal with

Anxiety

What’s anxiety like you ask? …it’s like trying to prepare for a life threatening storm but being stopped at every 3rd step to answer where’s the charger, the toy, tell him to stop, hey you sit down,hey mom are you tired, why are you breathing so hard like you’re running👀👀BECAUSE along with everything mini second

God gave me boys

Went to the store today and a lady comes and taps me to tell me how well behaved my boys are👀👀👀they should be and thank you I tell her. Leaving out of the store she stops me again to tell me thank you for raising them to be well mannered 👀👀👀 to which I say

Lost In Translation

You tell me you love and wanna rebuild yet you tear me down attempting to remind me of how insecure and offset I am as if I’m on the outside looking in from around the corner being told by a third party as if I’m not living in it and know first hand😒😒😒😒 You call

Keep In Mind That I’m a Woman and I’m sensitive About My💩

At some point during everyday I often question what am I living for what am I trying for what am I waiting for yet another day…..the only answer I have to give myself is for my kids…. Being loyal and forgiving and loving and smiling when I wanna just break down and cry and fuck