I let him touch me and caress me and hold my body after we “fucked”🤔or was it a jump off😒but the dick gotta be good for it to be a jump off at least for me🙋🏽‍♀️🤭 I let him keep me up late nights had me anticipating on his calls and smile JUST for him

What is this

I tried loving again with open arms, tons of understanding, compromising, shouldn’t have been or had to but fantasied about what should be and could I tried to accept the things I couldn’t change and appreciate what was given even though it came with me losing all of me more than ever… is funny I

I’m Fine

He left me without any kind of plan and now I have these kids to raise on my own and shield from all danger harm and everything in between that could cause hardship but I’m fine This big husky🙊 comes in our lives smooth as ever saying all the right things but doing so little

This Heart of Mine

Lately I’ve been catching myself telling my heart “girl SIT UR ASS DOWN and shush damn it fuck love ” I’m torn between wanting what the heart wants- that love that person who makes u feel like there’s no one better on this earth for them than u no matter what that void from being

I’m Tired

I hate feeling like everything is just crashing down and burning around me. I hate not being in control being taken advantage of and deemed unnecessary.. I don’t know where I belong or how to fit in or how to just sit in me comfortably and just be.. I miss peace and happiness and freedom

Nov9

To some, Black women are not afforded the luxury of finding a better relationship. Black women are not worthy of magical love stories. Successful love stories for Black women are marked solely by our ability to endure suffering and continue to stand with partners who demean, abuse and cheat on us with grace..Women are constantly

Just ranting

Sometimes giving up seems sooooooo right… I’ve made so many mistakes within the last year that I’m kind of ashamed to even admit… From loving the wrong person to loosing myself right after I found myself 🤦🏽‍♀️it’s all a mess Popping an Ativan no longer does the trick and the Prozac Lamictal Wellbutrin combo is

J2019

It’s been a long time I shouldn’t have left you without a good blog to hold you🤣🤣 it’s me and I’m BACK again. Lots of changes lots of growth some mistakes made once again BUT I’m back on my journaling kick. This has been my go to to let go and say what I want

Lord I love you

It took the Lord taking you away from me to see how beautiful I am, how capable I am how strong I can and will be… it took me losing everything to learn the importance of not putting any thing or person before him and to only depend and lean on him for every need

Low

You can be so much for so many people and actually be there when no one else is no matter the time situation or day but when the tables flip and literally have no one but God above watching you and for you there’s absolutely no one else around for you… when I first started