WhatIsThisFeeling

Its too pretty of a day to be in yet the thought of having to be around people, strangers gives me tension in my neck and a migraine to accompany it….. the kids are having fun so I gotta fake it a little bit longer….. I think I can do this…

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Case of the ex

Definitely my first and should’ve been my all and last but life tumbled it’s way for you and a million for me…let’s keep in touch through the patches and storms that life gifts us with you help me and vice versa common goal being each other’s well being. Would’ve never imagined you’d change it up and be as average and unmeasuring undeserving as any other until you showed me you’ve flipped and turn over different leaves. When you can lie next to me after being graced with the essence of what lies between these thighs and conversate about another👀👀🖕🏽🖕🏽 bwoy you tried it! I ain’t gon trip or lose sleep about it though I’m just fall back in line and sit back in the shadows and make you miss the very smell, taste, feeling and look of all that was almost yours…

-Sincerely,

NeverNoHowNotAgain👋🏾

Literally Cut

Almost 12 hrs later and I’m still in awe of how something as simple as a haircut could turn my entire day and most importantly demeanor around….. I wanna sit in this feeling for awhile and learn to love it and comprehend what it truly means to be comfortable and secure with yourself…..I stressed a little on what he may say and how he may disapprove and be angry😶😶😶and my better mind also told me NOT to….if I don’t love me how the hell am I supposed to expect anybody else to come along and love me. All of me.. the right way…

I’m baaaaaacccccckkkkk

Smh…not sure where to begin with all the thoughts swirling through my mind… I have no clue where to stand or sit or focus to try to get a grasp on this thing. This chaos. This confusion. This tornado. My life… I’m literally at a stand still😒😒😒🤔🤔🤔but going through so many emotions…none which are beneficial to me and definitely not anyone around me….my mind, the good portion that traps “normal me” says pray☺️things will get better they have to😶the greater portion, this person I’m slowly transforming into says GIVE UP GIVE IN RUIN EVERYTHING IT’LL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER😞😞and yeah I know that’s not true BuT what is there to do when you’re stuck in a dark spot with a million and 1 things swirling around you and have no control or direction….nothing but fall apart?